Broken heart for broken children...

Recently I've been reading a book by Heidi Baker called Always Enough. Heidi Baker is one inspirational lady who lived in Mozambique, Africa and has started an orphanage. And done much, much, more. I was reading last night and just thinking about how awesome it is that she is just living there loving those children. 

Let me just explain what I was reading.. and you will understand how I'm feeling. 

Heidi was talking about she was walking around the streets, and on her way to the market when she see's a little girl laying on the street.

In my head I automatically start to think

about all the beautiful children

I saw    

In Rwanda. 

She continues to talk about how she went up to this little girl, to see if she would talk. 

The little girl was abused, abandoned and diseased. 

Heidi didn't care. 

I didn't care about what the kids

were diseased with

they needed love

I was going to give it. 

Heidi say's the little girl was terrified and wouldn't talk.

Heidi held her, and took her to the orphanage. 

She said that the first night the little girl was so scared that she couldn't sleep.

Heidi held her till she fell asleep. 

Heidi got scabies and lice from that little girl

she didn't mind, because the next day that girl felt loved and began to talk. 

When I read this one paragraph in this book

my heart began to ache.

I thought about the  dozen kids I held

 that I could have got lice and scabies from

but none of that mattered when

you see their faces

light up.

I thought especially about one little girl... 

She was one girl in the orphanage that didn't 

run to grab your hand

or sit on your lap

play with your hair

and want to be held. 

She was terrified and didn't talk.

But when I saw her, all I wanted her to know was that she was loved.

So I held her.

Until she fell asleep.

These kids are broken

They are beaten

They are diseased

and unwanted. 

But they are also loved, wanted, desired, pure, whole and a child of God in the highest Kingdom. 

my heart is broken for these kids...

but that's why my faith is bigger than my fear.